And so I held on....

I held on to the thoughts of you and me together before,
caressing and comforting each other.
I held on to the "we" that would overcome all things for that
was the promise we made to each other.
I held on to the couple whom in everyone's eyes looked so
cute together but deep down inside we were dying.
I held on so tight that I was afraid my fingers were going numb.
Maybe I needed it to go numb along with my heart which is now so
cold that any change in you will not be felt
Change? Did I say change? I held on to the hope that you will change
eventually and we will go back to who we used to be.

Not the cute couple dying inside,

but the cute couple loving each other to no bounds.
But we did we have bounds.

We had boundaries sacred to us;

you crossed that boundary and my heart went cold.

So cold that I forgot what it felt like to be benevolent or admired or loved.
Loved? Did I say loved? Yes loved.

I deserve to be loved and I do realize it now.

I have a life time of love ahead of me so why hold on to the past.
I will not hold on to what is not mine,
because what's mine will not let my heart go cold.