Up until a few months ago I was still searching for answers, searching for peace of mind, but most of all searching for love! What I didn’t realize until recently, was that I desperately needed to be loved, not by someone else, but to be loved by myself for who I am and accept myself for who I am.
Over the last couple of years I’ve lost myself and had no idea who that person was that was staring back at me from the mirror. She was just a body, an empty shell with a broken soul. I am in my 40’s and still single. Don’t get me wrong. I am really glad that I am still single. I can do what I want and how I want to and when I want to. I don’t have to ask anybody’s permission or approval to be who I am destined to be. I don’t have to answer to anybody if I want to buy something for myself. I have literally unhooked that dreadful “Venter trailer” with all the unnecessary “baggage” and I now travel lightly with only the necessary. I am satisfied with who I am.
My unusually high expectations are now fuelled by a passion for life and I now spread my wings further and stronger.
My faith carries me through my dreams; it forms my thoughts and gives birth to my deepest desires. I am soaring through life higher than I ever thought possible.
And I LOVE IT! I am lucky to have this second chance on life. I realize now that the colours of life are not just black and white. It is a bright and vibrant rainbow full of passionate colours. The pain of the past is just there... in the past.
Today I can stand on my soapbox full of experiences and shout out to all that THERE IS HOPE!
Over the last couple of years I’ve lost myself and had no idea who that person was that was staring back at me from the mirror. She was just a body, an empty shell with a broken soul. I am in my 40’s and still single. Don’t get me wrong. I am really glad that I am still single. I can do what I want and how I want to and when I want to. I don’t have to ask anybody’s permission or approval to be who I am destined to be. I don’t have to answer to anybody if I want to buy something for myself. I have literally unhooked that dreadful “Venter trailer” with all the unnecessary “baggage” and I now travel lightly with only the necessary. I am satisfied with who I am.
My unusually high expectations are now fuelled by a passion for life and I now spread my wings further and stronger.
My faith carries me through my dreams; it forms my thoughts and gives birth to my deepest desires. I am soaring through life higher than I ever thought possible.
And I LOVE IT! I am lucky to have this second chance on life. I realize now that the colours of life are not just black and white. It is a bright and vibrant rainbow full of passionate colours. The pain of the past is just there... in the past.
Today I can stand on my soapbox full of experiences and shout out to all that THERE IS HOPE!
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